I first saw "Cabaret" over 30 years ago; it's been my favorite movie ever since. I love Liza in it, and she was spectacular in "Liza with a Z", the tv special (directed by Bob Fosse) she made right after that. I have listened to both soundtracks several hundred times over the years.

So yay for dvd; now I can have and watch both at any time. I can jump to whatever song and just enjoy that. I love modern technology (when it lets me enjoy music and other fun stuff).

Mostly, I love watching her sing. She holds nothing back in those performances. She gives every bit of energy and, more importantly, every bit of emotion. It's raw and powerful, almost overwhelming. And more than any other song, I've loved listening to her sing "Maybe this time" —

Maybe this time, I'll get lucky
Maybe this time, he'll stay
Maybe this time, for the first time
Love won't hurry away.
He will hold me fast; I'll be home at last
Not a loser anymore,
Like the last time and the time before.

And always, I've longed for that to be true. It almost happened once, but we were so wrong for each other. A few more times it came close, but they both disappeared before the band could get through the opening bars.

Has it changed at last? Is this time my "maybe"? I'm tempted to say "Yes", tempted to say "Wait and see". I know the song means so much more to me right now; I think this time is that time. I think I did get lucky.

I think it's about damn time.